New Theology

my beloved and iWrote this for the future Mr. a few months ago. Getting my wedding dress altered today. Only 46 more days to go!

New Theology

what is the exegesis
of smiley kisses and sweetheart texts,
what worship is there
in four-letter messages
scattered liberally in conversation?

it takes a patient heart
to wait for even predictable replies
that still the patient heart hangs on,
feeds from, stretches tenderer each consumation.

when the divine is common,
something you grow up
hearing
learning
speaking
about all the time,
you think you know…

the head has packaged up
doctrine and apologetics
and a thousand forms of personal religion
so we could live with the divine,
so we thought we could know
compassion
joy
gentleness
peace
faithfulness
love
in the right redemptive context,
in a way to live –
theoretically theologically,
an everyday practice of the Way.

and this is fine,
it is its own kind of fullness
that broadens and deepens
with further search
and rescue from despair
and dogma

but now…

but now…

after all this
time
learning
growth
acceptance
the rug is pulled out from underneath
and what used to be a walk
to a different rhythm
is now a dance

now i know what
compassion
joy
gentleness
peace
faithfulness
love
can be,
everyday,
and i am ready for this new convenant
in this new theology
that has made my heart flesh
and revealed to me the divine
more fully than ever before.

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